That is what my biopsy revealed. It is a BENIGN condition. =D I got the news after lunch on Monday. It was a huge relief. A giant weight lifted. I wanted to cry. My DH was so happy, he wanted to cry too. And now I feel like I should go and party. I'm joyous and thankful beyond words.
My sincerest and deepest thanks to all who prayed for me, kept me in their thoughts and sent positive thoughts and vibes my way. I was on quite a few prayer lists and I am so grateful to all of those who prayed for me - to get me through this. I was a wreck on Monday before I got the news. I just felt certain dread. It was awful. I can't imagine having that dread and then having bad news given. My heart goes out to those who get bad news and then end up needing cancer treatment.
DH is doing well after his appendectomy. His incisions are still sore because the dogs are constantly jumping on his lap and hitting his belly. I feel for him.
That's all for now.
Peace out... Love to all.
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Stereotactic Biopsy
I had my stereotactic Core Biopsy today. I was a bit nervous and on edge (grouchy) until I got there, and then I calmed down. Somehow my orders fell through the cracks and there was no order there for the biopsy. When I dropped my films off at the Women's Center, they said they would get the order from my doctor. I think that someone dropped the ball because they were expecting me to walk through the door with it. The situation was resolved easy enough, one phone call to my doctor and they faxed it over. Not a big deal.
Here is how the biopsy went:
After changing into a front-opening gown, I was taken into a room that had a mammogram machine along with a couple of other machines and a cushioned table. The procedure was explained to me by the nurse, as well as the restrictions after. The doctor performing the procedure was called in. He also explained everything that I had just heard. He left the room, and the nurse got me set up.
I laid down on my stomach on the cushioned table. My right breast was placed in a hole on the table. The table was raised and then the machines used for the procedure were moved into place underneath me. My nurse took several images using a mini mammo type machine that then displayed onto a computer screen. The computer gave a location, the doctor was called back in and the computer told them where to make the incision.
Lidocane was used to numb the area, the incision was made and then the core biopsy needle was inserted. Another image was taken to make sure they were in the right spot. Another dose of lidocane was placed deep in the tissue where the incision was made. Then the tissue samples were taken. Four of them that were about 2 inches long and about the thickness of an earth worm. I saw them on the tray. They were ugly. LOL
The needle was left in place, the tissue samples were xrayed to make sure the calcifications were there - another indication that they were biopsying the correct location. I got to see that too.
All of the microcalcifications were removed. The doctor then inserted a titanium clip to mark the biopsy spot and he left. More images were taken for documentation. I was then allowed to move. I sat up for a bit, then laid on my back. The nurse squeezed my breast a lot, I guess to make sure there were no big blood clots in there. Then she cleaned up the area and closed it with steri-strips.
Then another mammogram was done on that breast - for more documentation.
After the films were checked, my tissue samples were put into a cup to be picked up for pathology. And I was allowed to leave. Everything took about an hour and a half to two hours.
I have to ice the incision area for 30 minutes, wait an hour, and ice again... until I go to bed tonight. I'm wearing a sports bra and have to sleep in it. I am to do nothing but veg today and take it easy for today and tomorrow. But I will probably go to work tomorrow.
I get to start taking my anti-inflammatory again tonight - which I had to stop for 3 days because it could cause excessive bleeding. And I've been in pretty nasty pain for 3 days. I am looking forward to having that go away.
I should have the biopsy results in 3-5 business days. I've been told that if I haven't heard anything by next Wednesday, that I need to call my doctor.
So, that's the scoop. I will update with results when I get them.
Here is how the biopsy went:
After changing into a front-opening gown, I was taken into a room that had a mammogram machine along with a couple of other machines and a cushioned table. The procedure was explained to me by the nurse, as well as the restrictions after. The doctor performing the procedure was called in. He also explained everything that I had just heard. He left the room, and the nurse got me set up.
I laid down on my stomach on the cushioned table. My right breast was placed in a hole on the table. The table was raised and then the machines used for the procedure were moved into place underneath me. My nurse took several images using a mini mammo type machine that then displayed onto a computer screen. The computer gave a location, the doctor was called back in and the computer told them where to make the incision.
Lidocane was used to numb the area, the incision was made and then the core biopsy needle was inserted. Another image was taken to make sure they were in the right spot. Another dose of lidocane was placed deep in the tissue where the incision was made. Then the tissue samples were taken. Four of them that were about 2 inches long and about the thickness of an earth worm. I saw them on the tray. They were ugly. LOL
The needle was left in place, the tissue samples were xrayed to make sure the calcifications were there - another indication that they were biopsying the correct location. I got to see that too.
All of the microcalcifications were removed. The doctor then inserted a titanium clip to mark the biopsy spot and he left. More images were taken for documentation. I was then allowed to move. I sat up for a bit, then laid on my back. The nurse squeezed my breast a lot, I guess to make sure there were no big blood clots in there. Then she cleaned up the area and closed it with steri-strips.
Then another mammogram was done on that breast - for more documentation.
After the films were checked, my tissue samples were put into a cup to be picked up for pathology. And I was allowed to leave. Everything took about an hour and a half to two hours.
I have to ice the incision area for 30 minutes, wait an hour, and ice again... until I go to bed tonight. I'm wearing a sports bra and have to sleep in it. I am to do nothing but veg today and take it easy for today and tomorrow. But I will probably go to work tomorrow.
I get to start taking my anti-inflammatory again tonight - which I had to stop for 3 days because it could cause excessive bleeding. And I've been in pretty nasty pain for 3 days. I am looking forward to having that go away.
I should have the biopsy results in 3-5 business days. I've been told that if I haven't heard anything by next Wednesday, that I need to call my doctor.
So, that's the scoop. I will update with results when I get them.
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
More...
More... yes there is more. lol
My husband had his appendix removed yesterday morning. He had it done laproscopicly (sp?), so that is good news. No issues. He is off of work for 2-3 weeks.
Tomorrow is my biopsy. I've been nervous, but distracted for these few days with the appendectomy thrown in the mix. lol I'm pretty much too exhausted to do much worrying. lol
I'll update when I have some news to share.
My husband had his appendix removed yesterday morning. He had it done laproscopicly (sp?), so that is good news. No issues. He is off of work for 2-3 weeks.
Tomorrow is my biopsy. I've been nervous, but distracted for these few days with the appendectomy thrown in the mix. lol I'm pretty much too exhausted to do much worrying. lol
I'll update when I have some news to share.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
When It Rains It Pours, so they say...
And... right now I seem to be walking through 2008 with a HUGE black cloud over my head.
I know that I haven't posted in a while. And I honestly don't even know where I left off last. lol Guess I should read my own blog, huh? :)
So, I will do a recap... Have been having problems in my neck, left knee, left elbow, left shoulder and my lower back too. Have had x-rays and an MRI of my neck, x-rays of the knee and lower back. Was referred to a pain clinic. They sent me for therapy and gave me meds for pain (tramadol). Six weeks of therapy did nothing to help me. They tried traction and that made matters worse. I self-referred to a neurosurgeon and that was a joke. He argued with me that my MRI was an open one and I insisted that it was closed. He told me that I was not surgical and that he had no answers and ordered a nerve test.
The pain clinic only referred me for physical therapy on my neck and to a sports oriented orthoepedic specialist. He told me it was all tendonitis and gave me a medrol dose pack (steroids). I had already tried a medrol dose pack from my PCP. It is great while I'm on it, when it is done I go back to the pain. The worst of the pain (and swelling) was in my knee and I told the ortho this. I also told him about the medrol. He ignored me and told me to take it anyway. When I called back after the pain returned after the medrol pack was over, I asked what to do about my knee now. I got a call the next day saying the doctor wanted to give me a shot in my shoulder. Yah okay. I said, it is my knee that is the bad part. She looked at my chart and said, he wrote shoulder. You'll just have to come in and discuss it with him. I was astonished.
Feeling at my wits end, I contacted my PCP and asked for help. I got an appointment to see her and we went over everything. She gave me vicodin for bedtime pain since the tramadol didn't seem to do much and I haven't been sleeping well because of the pain. She also ordered some blood work to check for Lupus and Rhumatoid Arthritis. And she referred me to an othropaedic specialist who specializes in backs - since I was having trouble in all areas that could be diagnosed/treated by an ortho.
I saw that doctor - he was wonderful. Gave me a cortisone shot in my knee and it has been much better now. :) He also told me that I am not a surgical candidate. And that my issues are not tendonitis. He thinks I have systematic arthritis. He gave me a different anti-inflammatory to use instead of ibuprofen. It has done a better job. :) And he referred me to an arthritis specialist.
I saw that doctor and he prescribed a muscle relaxer for bedtime. My sleep has improved even more. :) Sleep is a wonderful thing. :) He doesn't think it is lupus or RA. And has requested more blood work. I still have to have that drawn. They told me I didn't have to fast - went to the lab and was told to come back after fasting. (sigh)
So, on good days... my neck doesn't hurt until about 3pm. On bad days, it is hurting when I wake up. But the pills are helping. I'm sleeping almost normally. And I'm feeling more positive. The prescription anti-inflammatory is really helping my shoulder and elbow too.
So... you are probably wondering then, why did I entitle this post "When it rains it pours, so they say". Here's why...
In July, I turned 40. My GYN ordered a routine Mammogram. Abnormalities were indicated and further testing was recommended. A repeat mammo in 6 months (which I didn't know about and found out about yesterday) and a bi-laterial ultrasound of both breasts.
So, the u/s was ordered and it was done shortly after the mammo. The abnormalities in the left breast were deemed normal by the u/s. But two cystic areas were found in my right breast - with echoing in one (meaning possibly NOT a fluid filled cyst). A repeat u/s of the right breast was ordered for 6 months later.
I was able to get a repeat u/s of the right breast anytime in December. I chose 12/1. I went to a different facility, but had all films sent there for comparison. This time, one of the original cystic areas were not found (the one with the echoing), but six areas were found this time. I was told to repeat the u/s on the right breast again in six months. It was then that I was told that it was recommended, 6 months ago, that I have a repeat mammo on the right breast also. The doctor at the imaging center said he would remind my GYN in the report of the u/s that he would send them.
This morning, my GYN's office called me this morning to tell me to schedule a repeat mammo. I called the imaging center and was able to get in there at 3:30 this afternoon. My GYN faxed over the order.
I had 5-7 images taken by the mammography machine (I can't remember how many now). The reason for the repeat is that calcifications were found on the original mammo six months ago.
The same doctor from yesterday conferred with the other doctor on staff and they agreed that I need a biopsy. They can't tell if they grew in size, but they appear to have grown in quantity.
I now have to wait to hear from my GYN to find out where and with whom to schedule the Stereotactic Biopsy that I need to have done.
So, when it rains, it pours. or so they say... and so it seems.
In this year, I have been diagnosed severely anemic and needed an emergency blood transfusion out of the blue. Then I needed an iron infusion (IV). Now I'm on oral iron supplements.
Then I had the routine mammo, followed by a bi-laterial breast u/s. Then had to wait 6 months to follow-up.
Then I started having neck problems and found out I have herniated and bulging discs in my neck. Then came the elbow and shoulder pain. Then the knee pain and swelling. Then the lower back pain.
Now I have to have a biopsy to make sure that those calcifications are not an indication/the beginning of breast cancer.
Does anyone have an umbrella? =D
You should see my purse... it is a mini pharmacy. In it, I have Protonix for my acid reflux, Tramadol for minor neck/back pain. Vicodin for moderate neck/back pain. Prescription anti-inflammatory (that I can't remember the name of, lol). Glucosamine. Fish Oil. Fibro-Ease (vitamin supplement for joint pain). Iron Supplements. Birth control pills. I also carry ibuprofen and tylenol for other members of my family who may need a non-prescription pain aid.
The doctor at the imaging clinic said that I have an 80% chance that the results of the biopsy will be benign. I'm hoping he's right. He also said that the area with calcifications is small and if the results are not benign, we caught it very early and that is a very good thing. I'm to call and let them know the results of the biopsy when I get them.
So, that is my update. Hopefully my next update, I will have good news. Right now I'm rather stressed but trying to be strong and not as scared as my heart is telling me to be.
If you made it through all of this... thank you. :)
Maybe I will get a bigger purse for Christmas that will include enough room for an umbrella to get me out of this rain. =D
I know that I haven't posted in a while. And I honestly don't even know where I left off last. lol Guess I should read my own blog, huh? :)
So, I will do a recap... Have been having problems in my neck, left knee, left elbow, left shoulder and my lower back too. Have had x-rays and an MRI of my neck, x-rays of the knee and lower back. Was referred to a pain clinic. They sent me for therapy and gave me meds for pain (tramadol). Six weeks of therapy did nothing to help me. They tried traction and that made matters worse. I self-referred to a neurosurgeon and that was a joke. He argued with me that my MRI was an open one and I insisted that it was closed. He told me that I was not surgical and that he had no answers and ordered a nerve test.
The pain clinic only referred me for physical therapy on my neck and to a sports oriented orthoepedic specialist. He told me it was all tendonitis and gave me a medrol dose pack (steroids). I had already tried a medrol dose pack from my PCP. It is great while I'm on it, when it is done I go back to the pain. The worst of the pain (and swelling) was in my knee and I told the ortho this. I also told him about the medrol. He ignored me and told me to take it anyway. When I called back after the pain returned after the medrol pack was over, I asked what to do about my knee now. I got a call the next day saying the doctor wanted to give me a shot in my shoulder. Yah okay. I said, it is my knee that is the bad part. She looked at my chart and said, he wrote shoulder. You'll just have to come in and discuss it with him. I was astonished.
Feeling at my wits end, I contacted my PCP and asked for help. I got an appointment to see her and we went over everything. She gave me vicodin for bedtime pain since the tramadol didn't seem to do much and I haven't been sleeping well because of the pain. She also ordered some blood work to check for Lupus and Rhumatoid Arthritis. And she referred me to an othropaedic specialist who specializes in backs - since I was having trouble in all areas that could be diagnosed/treated by an ortho.
I saw that doctor - he was wonderful. Gave me a cortisone shot in my knee and it has been much better now. :) He also told me that I am not a surgical candidate. And that my issues are not tendonitis. He thinks I have systematic arthritis. He gave me a different anti-inflammatory to use instead of ibuprofen. It has done a better job. :) And he referred me to an arthritis specialist.
I saw that doctor and he prescribed a muscle relaxer for bedtime. My sleep has improved even more. :) Sleep is a wonderful thing. :) He doesn't think it is lupus or RA. And has requested more blood work. I still have to have that drawn. They told me I didn't have to fast - went to the lab and was told to come back after fasting. (sigh)
So, on good days... my neck doesn't hurt until about 3pm. On bad days, it is hurting when I wake up. But the pills are helping. I'm sleeping almost normally. And I'm feeling more positive. The prescription anti-inflammatory is really helping my shoulder and elbow too.
So... you are probably wondering then, why did I entitle this post "When it rains it pours, so they say". Here's why...
In July, I turned 40. My GYN ordered a routine Mammogram. Abnormalities were indicated and further testing was recommended. A repeat mammo in 6 months (which I didn't know about and found out about yesterday) and a bi-laterial ultrasound of both breasts.
So, the u/s was ordered and it was done shortly after the mammo. The abnormalities in the left breast were deemed normal by the u/s. But two cystic areas were found in my right breast - with echoing in one (meaning possibly NOT a fluid filled cyst). A repeat u/s of the right breast was ordered for 6 months later.
I was able to get a repeat u/s of the right breast anytime in December. I chose 12/1. I went to a different facility, but had all films sent there for comparison. This time, one of the original cystic areas were not found (the one with the echoing), but six areas were found this time. I was told to repeat the u/s on the right breast again in six months. It was then that I was told that it was recommended, 6 months ago, that I have a repeat mammo on the right breast also. The doctor at the imaging center said he would remind my GYN in the report of the u/s that he would send them.
This morning, my GYN's office called me this morning to tell me to schedule a repeat mammo. I called the imaging center and was able to get in there at 3:30 this afternoon. My GYN faxed over the order.
I had 5-7 images taken by the mammography machine (I can't remember how many now). The reason for the repeat is that calcifications were found on the original mammo six months ago.
The same doctor from yesterday conferred with the other doctor on staff and they agreed that I need a biopsy. They can't tell if they grew in size, but they appear to have grown in quantity.
I now have to wait to hear from my GYN to find out where and with whom to schedule the Stereotactic Biopsy that I need to have done.
So, when it rains, it pours. or so they say... and so it seems.
In this year, I have been diagnosed severely anemic and needed an emergency blood transfusion out of the blue. Then I needed an iron infusion (IV). Now I'm on oral iron supplements.
Then I had the routine mammo, followed by a bi-laterial breast u/s. Then had to wait 6 months to follow-up.
Then I started having neck problems and found out I have herniated and bulging discs in my neck. Then came the elbow and shoulder pain. Then the knee pain and swelling. Then the lower back pain.
Now I have to have a biopsy to make sure that those calcifications are not an indication/the beginning of breast cancer.
Does anyone have an umbrella? =D
You should see my purse... it is a mini pharmacy. In it, I have Protonix for my acid reflux, Tramadol for minor neck/back pain. Vicodin for moderate neck/back pain. Prescription anti-inflammatory (that I can't remember the name of, lol). Glucosamine. Fish Oil. Fibro-Ease (vitamin supplement for joint pain). Iron Supplements. Birth control pills. I also carry ibuprofen and tylenol for other members of my family who may need a non-prescription pain aid.
The doctor at the imaging clinic said that I have an 80% chance that the results of the biopsy will be benign. I'm hoping he's right. He also said that the area with calcifications is small and if the results are not benign, we caught it very early and that is a very good thing. I'm to call and let them know the results of the biopsy when I get them.
So, that is my update. Hopefully my next update, I will have good news. Right now I'm rather stressed but trying to be strong and not as scared as my heart is telling me to be.
If you made it through all of this... thank you. :)
Maybe I will get a bigger purse for Christmas that will include enough room for an umbrella to get me out of this rain. =D
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Some relief!
Yes!!!
Finally some relief! :)
Had my second round of PT on Monday and then a chiro visit for a manipulation on my neck and my lower back (sleeping all funky due to the pains here and everywhere). I woke up yesterday morning, feeling refreshed and in less pain - and no headache at all yesterday! :) Woo Hoo!
The one and only thing is that where she put the rolled up towel for the traction, it hurts to touch. Still does today, a bit - so will mention that.
Taking less pills makes me happy too - I'm more alert. I'm looking for a solution/fix... not a life of pain pills.
Finally feeling upbeat about this. Hopefully I can get the other aches/pains fixed too and be good as new. Then I can get back to my lifting and stuff. The biggest loser is lighting a fire under my butt again. =D
Finally some relief! :)
Had my second round of PT on Monday and then a chiro visit for a manipulation on my neck and my lower back (sleeping all funky due to the pains here and everywhere). I woke up yesterday morning, feeling refreshed and in less pain - and no headache at all yesterday! :) Woo Hoo!
The one and only thing is that where she put the rolled up towel for the traction, it hurts to touch. Still does today, a bit - so will mention that.
Taking less pills makes me happy too - I'm more alert. I'm looking for a solution/fix... not a life of pain pills.
Finally feeling upbeat about this. Hopefully I can get the other aches/pains fixed too and be good as new. Then I can get back to my lifting and stuff. The biggest loser is lighting a fire under my butt again. =D
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Scared. Frustrated.
I'm scared. Posting here because I need to get it off of my chest and it seems as though no one around me really wants to hear about my problems anymore. They are all tired of my complaining and whining. My family doesn't want to hear it. And most of my online friends don't even acknowlege my words anymore. So, here I turn... to whomever happens to run across my words and cares enough to read. It may end up being no one. lol But at least I've got my thoughts out there.
I'm scared.
I seem to have all of these things going wrong with me. I've got several doctors looking at pieces of me No one is looking at the whole. What is the likelihood that I have multiple things go wrong, at the same time, but nothing is connected to anything else? I guess I'm not believing in that very much at this point.
I've always had bad knees. 50+ pounds ago, they were worse. I could not kneel. Gradually, my right knee got better. My left knee - no. And then the tendonitis set in. When I would rest it, it would improve.
While on vacation in July, I got bad neck pain and my knee was killing me - bad weather came through. I did not seek medical treatment.
The knee thing has been off & on. The neck pain has been more consistent. Have had x-rays of both areas. Knee is fine (bone wise). Neck... not good. Long story short... x-rays, MRI, bone scan w/SPECT. I have 2 bulging discs, 2 herniated discs. I'm on a pain pill (tramadol) and started physical therapy last Thursday.
Left knee is still having problems. Several weeks ago, while working out, my left elbow was popping and snapping - but not hurting. Then it started hurting a few days later. When I would rest it, it would be fine. It is no longer fine. My left shoulder started hurting shortly after the left elbow. Thought it was connected to my neck - was told by the pain clinic doctor that it is a separate issue. I see an orthopedic specialist on 9/30 for my knee and shoulder. Will have them check my elbow too. (everything is on my left)
Since having 3 children, I would leak a bit of urine when I would sneeze sometimes - or cough when sick. On Friday.... I was trying to be a brave girl and kill a big spider - I was screaming as I was trying to kill it - and peed my pants. :( How embarassing.
Today, took my DD leaf searching for her biology project... and had a bowel accident that I didn't even know I had until the dog pointed it out when she came into the bathroom with me. :( Again... how embarassing. :(
What is going on with me? Is this what happens to everyone who turns 40? Your whole body just collapses and falls apart? Are all of these things happening at one time, just a coincidence? Am I just being paranoid and have nothing to be worried about?
Oh yeah... 20% hearing loss too.
I'm scared.
I seem to have all of these things going wrong with me. I've got several doctors looking at pieces of me No one is looking at the whole. What is the likelihood that I have multiple things go wrong, at the same time, but nothing is connected to anything else? I guess I'm not believing in that very much at this point.
I've always had bad knees. 50+ pounds ago, they were worse. I could not kneel. Gradually, my right knee got better. My left knee - no. And then the tendonitis set in. When I would rest it, it would improve.
While on vacation in July, I got bad neck pain and my knee was killing me - bad weather came through. I did not seek medical treatment.
The knee thing has been off & on. The neck pain has been more consistent. Have had x-rays of both areas. Knee is fine (bone wise). Neck... not good. Long story short... x-rays, MRI, bone scan w/SPECT. I have 2 bulging discs, 2 herniated discs. I'm on a pain pill (tramadol) and started physical therapy last Thursday.
Left knee is still having problems. Several weeks ago, while working out, my left elbow was popping and snapping - but not hurting. Then it started hurting a few days later. When I would rest it, it would be fine. It is no longer fine. My left shoulder started hurting shortly after the left elbow. Thought it was connected to my neck - was told by the pain clinic doctor that it is a separate issue. I see an orthopedic specialist on 9/30 for my knee and shoulder. Will have them check my elbow too. (everything is on my left)
Since having 3 children, I would leak a bit of urine when I would sneeze sometimes - or cough when sick. On Friday.... I was trying to be a brave girl and kill a big spider - I was screaming as I was trying to kill it - and peed my pants. :( How embarassing.
Today, took my DD leaf searching for her biology project... and had a bowel accident that I didn't even know I had until the dog pointed it out when she came into the bathroom with me. :( Again... how embarassing. :(
What is going on with me? Is this what happens to everyone who turns 40? Your whole body just collapses and falls apart? Are all of these things happening at one time, just a coincidence? Am I just being paranoid and have nothing to be worried about?
Oh yeah... 20% hearing loss too.
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
At war with myself
There is a war being fought within me. Or I was abducted by aliens and placed into someone else's body. SOMETHING is going on. And not only is it causing me stress and frustration along with discomfort and pain... it is causing me to feel as though I am not able to communicate properly (well). I am a talker. I am almost never at a loss for words. And I always thought I was able to get my thoughts across well... no longer am I confident that I can express myself well. (sigh)
Anyone who knows me, knows that I have been working on becoming healthy and living a healthy lifestyle - something completely new for me. I've incorporated eating healthy as well as exercising (cardio) and strength training. I started on this journey in October 2007 and have lost over 50 pounds so far. I am very proud of myself and my accomplishments. I have lost a lot of fat, increased my strength and cardio abilities. I am not tired and my body doesn't ache like it used to. I can walk and not hurt or become fatigued quickly/easily. I WANT to be outside doing things. This is all new for me. Even when I was thin, I wasn't fit. I am becoming fit. :)
So, what is the problem, right? Sounds like everything is great.
Perhaps I am just being whiney about it. If that is the case, then I just need to get over myself and move on. If you have a thought or opinion on this, feel free to share.
When I was at my heaviest, I was miserable and in pain whenever I tried to do things (like walking, carrying clothes baskets, etc...). I knew it was because of my weight and the pain was then justified. I hated it, so decided to do something about it... hence the lifestyle change. I have been feeling better and better with each pound that I shed. With each day further into a better, healthier lifestyle.
Until this year. Until I hit 40. Until... whatever milestone you want to throw in there. Whatever "thing" you want to throw in there as the "beginning" of this shit.
I was feeling poorly for so long, that I didn't realize how bad off I really was, I don't think. That is why the severe anemia diagnosis came out of nowhere and smacked me square in the jaw. That was in March/April. If you read my blog or know me, you'll know that I got an iron infusion and that seems to have done the trick. I go for one more blood draw to confirm that everything is staying up where it should be - then I will be considered "cured" without further testing or explanation of how I became severely anemic.
After that, came my yearly GYN visit where he ordered my first mammogram. Came back with abnormalities in both breasts. Lovely. Had to then go for an ultrasound of both breasts. Something was detected in the right breast and I am to go back in December for a followup ultrasound to see if there are any changes. If not, then I am just abnormal - which would be "normal" for me and what is being seen would then be labled... nothing.
At that same GYN visit, I asked for YAZ birth control pills. Two reasons... Severe PMS and because we officially decided no more TTC and we don't want a "surprise" thrown at us now. I hope that statement doesn't offend anyone. I know many would love a surprise at any age. Don't hate me or begrudge me for my choices at this point in my life. So, he gives me YAZ and I get the bright idea to ask to do back-to-back packs so that I skip having a period altogether. Who likes AF anyway, right? Right! So, I get the ok from the doctor's office... and a week into the second pack, I start bleeding and bleed for about 19 days. About 14 days into it, I call the doctor - he orders blood tests and schedules a visit to see him. I see him, he gives me more pills and instructions on how to get back on track with the BCPs and we will try back-to-back one more time and see how it goes. So, after 19 days of bleeding... I finally get relief and the bleeding stops (from the extra pills he gave me)... For THREE days. THREE! :( Yes, I am bleeding again. And it is heavy. And I have cramps. After bleeding for 19 days, how much could actually be built up in there? I figured not much. I figured wrong.
So, hormonally, my body is screwed up. PMS is back, I'm a pig, I'm a bear and I'm bloated. Freaking yay. Oh, and Niagara Falls has taken up residence in my hoo-ha. Okay, maybe not NIAGARA FALLS... but a small, fast flowing stream. Okay? :)
And... my neck and left knee have been bothering me. I see a chiropractor, but this neck pain felt "different", not like I needed a manipulation/adjustment. So, I went to the PCP instead. She ordered x-rays of both areas. Knee is tendonitis. Yipee. Neck is disc degeneration. I'm taking ibuprofen and seeing the chiropractor to see if he can give me some relief. So far... nothing. :( I *thought* maybe a little improvement yesterday - today... No.
So, my neck hurts today. My knee is giving me troubles and feels really "tight". In addition, the backs of my thighs - down by my knees are tight and tender feeling, but it is not from lifting as I am resting in that area of my life so as not to aggrivate the neck area. And now, for whatever reason, I have a sore spot on the bottom of my right foot. Whatever. (sigh) Oh yeah... and the ingrown toenail is STILL hanging around and giving me trouble too.
So, this ... all of this... is why I feel like my body has waged war on me. I am improving my life, I should be feeling good - not feeling like my body is quitting on me.
Oh yeah... everyone in my family has been giving me a hard time and calling me deaf lately. So, at the fair yesterday - there was a booth set up and they were doing free hearing tests. I thought it was a good idea to do one. I am borderline. 20% hearing loss. I can't hear low tones well at all. So of course.... that is 3/5 of my family - the men with their low voices. I just can't hear them or make out what they are saying a LOT of the time. My boss and his son - both men, soft spoken - can't hear them hardly at all if they aren't right beside me. And even if they are beside me sometimes I still have troubles. It is ridiculous.
Let's not even talk about my eyesight. I bet the next time I get my eyes checked... I will move to bifocals. Do they sell contacts that are bifocals? Small print sucks.
Age. Age has snuck up on me and bashed me good. I'm in round 3 and ready to be KO'd here. I want to win this fight, but am not even sure how one goes about fighting themselves... and coming out the winner.
Anyone who knows me, knows that I have been working on becoming healthy and living a healthy lifestyle - something completely new for me. I've incorporated eating healthy as well as exercising (cardio) and strength training. I started on this journey in October 2007 and have lost over 50 pounds so far. I am very proud of myself and my accomplishments. I have lost a lot of fat, increased my strength and cardio abilities. I am not tired and my body doesn't ache like it used to. I can walk and not hurt or become fatigued quickly/easily. I WANT to be outside doing things. This is all new for me. Even when I was thin, I wasn't fit. I am becoming fit. :)
So, what is the problem, right? Sounds like everything is great.
Perhaps I am just being whiney about it. If that is the case, then I just need to get over myself and move on. If you have a thought or opinion on this, feel free to share.
When I was at my heaviest, I was miserable and in pain whenever I tried to do things (like walking, carrying clothes baskets, etc...). I knew it was because of my weight and the pain was then justified. I hated it, so decided to do something about it... hence the lifestyle change. I have been feeling better and better with each pound that I shed. With each day further into a better, healthier lifestyle.
Until this year. Until I hit 40. Until... whatever milestone you want to throw in there. Whatever "thing" you want to throw in there as the "beginning" of this shit.
I was feeling poorly for so long, that I didn't realize how bad off I really was, I don't think. That is why the severe anemia diagnosis came out of nowhere and smacked me square in the jaw. That was in March/April. If you read my blog or know me, you'll know that I got an iron infusion and that seems to have done the trick. I go for one more blood draw to confirm that everything is staying up where it should be - then I will be considered "cured" without further testing or explanation of how I became severely anemic.
After that, came my yearly GYN visit where he ordered my first mammogram. Came back with abnormalities in both breasts. Lovely. Had to then go for an ultrasound of both breasts. Something was detected in the right breast and I am to go back in December for a followup ultrasound to see if there are any changes. If not, then I am just abnormal - which would be "normal" for me and what is being seen would then be labled... nothing.
At that same GYN visit, I asked for YAZ birth control pills. Two reasons... Severe PMS and because we officially decided no more TTC and we don't want a "surprise" thrown at us now. I hope that statement doesn't offend anyone. I know many would love a surprise at any age. Don't hate me or begrudge me for my choices at this point in my life. So, he gives me YAZ and I get the bright idea to ask to do back-to-back packs so that I skip having a period altogether. Who likes AF anyway, right? Right! So, I get the ok from the doctor's office... and a week into the second pack, I start bleeding and bleed for about 19 days. About 14 days into it, I call the doctor - he orders blood tests and schedules a visit to see him. I see him, he gives me more pills and instructions on how to get back on track with the BCPs and we will try back-to-back one more time and see how it goes. So, after 19 days of bleeding... I finally get relief and the bleeding stops (from the extra pills he gave me)... For THREE days. THREE! :( Yes, I am bleeding again. And it is heavy. And I have cramps. After bleeding for 19 days, how much could actually be built up in there? I figured not much. I figured wrong.
So, hormonally, my body is screwed up. PMS is back, I'm a pig, I'm a bear and I'm bloated. Freaking yay. Oh, and Niagara Falls has taken up residence in my hoo-ha. Okay, maybe not NIAGARA FALLS... but a small, fast flowing stream. Okay? :)
And... my neck and left knee have been bothering me. I see a chiropractor, but this neck pain felt "different", not like I needed a manipulation/adjustment. So, I went to the PCP instead. She ordered x-rays of both areas. Knee is tendonitis. Yipee. Neck is disc degeneration. I'm taking ibuprofen and seeing the chiropractor to see if he can give me some relief. So far... nothing. :( I *thought* maybe a little improvement yesterday - today... No.
So, my neck hurts today. My knee is giving me troubles and feels really "tight". In addition, the backs of my thighs - down by my knees are tight and tender feeling, but it is not from lifting as I am resting in that area of my life so as not to aggrivate the neck area. And now, for whatever reason, I have a sore spot on the bottom of my right foot. Whatever. (sigh) Oh yeah... and the ingrown toenail is STILL hanging around and giving me trouble too.
So, this ... all of this... is why I feel like my body has waged war on me. I am improving my life, I should be feeling good - not feeling like my body is quitting on me.
Oh yeah... everyone in my family has been giving me a hard time and calling me deaf lately. So, at the fair yesterday - there was a booth set up and they were doing free hearing tests. I thought it was a good idea to do one. I am borderline. 20% hearing loss. I can't hear low tones well at all. So of course.... that is 3/5 of my family - the men with their low voices. I just can't hear them or make out what they are saying a LOT of the time. My boss and his son - both men, soft spoken - can't hear them hardly at all if they aren't right beside me. And even if they are beside me sometimes I still have troubles. It is ridiculous.
Let's not even talk about my eyesight. I bet the next time I get my eyes checked... I will move to bifocals. Do they sell contacts that are bifocals? Small print sucks.
Age. Age has snuck up on me and bashed me good. I'm in round 3 and ready to be KO'd here. I want to win this fight, but am not even sure how one goes about fighting themselves... and coming out the winner.
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